Charging Through Life

I found out last night that Randy has an annual base salary of $100,000 (for those of you keeping score, that's twice what I make). But because he's in sales he can bring in $15-25,000 a month in bonuses alone. FUCK!

Matt, doesn't have the bonus thing in his favor but is making something like $112,000 annually with yearly corporate bonuses of let's say $17,000.

Randy has said to me that he feels I resent him in our friendship because of the kind of money he makes right now compared to me and what it allows him to do. Don't get me wrong, there's something there but I don't resent him. In fact I don't believe what he's sensing has anything really to do with him. I'm using Randy and Matt as a guide post for my own life. What they do I should be able to do. So why am I not making better money in my career? This is what is so frustrating.

I know I'm smart, I know I'm talented, I know I'm well liked and creative. What is it that I'm not getting in this whole career thing?

I think it has to do with money. Not my money - other people's money. See, Randy and Matt are both responsible for making other people money. For that responsibility they are paid very well by people who have more money than I can even imagine. I'm responsible for distributing content - content that is not a direct money maker. I too work for someone who is un-Godly rich and successful but I don't do anything that makes him money. So it doesn't matter how good I am at what I do. It doesn't matter how great I think I am or how well I improve things for the company. Until I'm in a position where I'm making someone else a lot of money I'm not going to be making a lot of money. The funny thing is... if I were out making someone else rich this blog entry would be all about why am I making other people rich and not myself. But that's for a later blog.

I don't know what I know about money, really. Other than I have none and could really use some. I'm not sure there's much I could do to make someone else a lot of money that would in turn make me some cash and be a rewarding and fun job. Dad says, "find something you enjoy doing and then find a way to make money at it." Is that short sided? Shouldn't it be, "Find something you enjoy doing and then find a way to make someone else rich at it"? Well, now that's just depressing.