Charging Through Life

With all the issues that have plagued me as of late, I've been going round and round about how to fix them. And like my Dad, I start with the biggest problem; the one that seems like the biggest challenge and thus the most rewarding to conquer. In my thinking, "if I can just fix this one big issue, all the other little problems in my life will work themselves out." This is why I've keep insisting on trying to fix my career situation for the past 6 years.

I never know where I'm suppose to end up in my career but I know that it's not where I am at any given point. So I keep working on the problem. I seek out new opportunities, I attempt to position myself to other department heads, I write up proposals, I work on projects outside of my responsibility, I demonstrate what I can do if only people would tap my potential. I've been attacking this problem ever since Technicolor - maybe even as far back as Duplitech.

And what have I gotten for my effort? Well people like me. Everyone thinks of me as smart and good with computers. They come to me with their questions and are grateful when I explain how to do new things. I've been challenged a little throughout the years but not nearly enough as I should be. I've been able to pass on knowledge and train some new kids right out of college. (are we bored with this yet 'cause I am)

So what am I doing wrong?

I'm tackling the issue for which I have no control over. I can't give myself a promotion. I can't give myself a raise. I can't walk into a new company and have them hire me. I have no direct control over the course of my career. Unless I go into business for myself I only can influence and guide the outcome of my future through my actions, attitude, and connections. But so far, despite my best actions, I've gotten bupkis.

Expending all my energy on trying to change thing for which I have no direct control over is diverting my attention from other goals in my life.

I need to focus on the low hangers in my life. I can change my spending habits. I can chose to eat natural and healthy foods. I can commit to an exercise routine. I can reduce my alcohol intake when going out. I can walk up and talk to new, hot boys... All these are problems for me but they're the easy shit. The stuff I have direct control over and can easily tackle. And yet, I have been ignoring them to focus on the one big thing.

If I stroke these low hangers and give them some much needed attention, then maybe the big, long, tough shaft - the mother of all my problems and desires - will cum much easier. Hell, maybe it will explode all over the place without me even touching it. Hot!